off focus

im scare.... its juz a stats mod and im strugglin like mad... my revision for my term test seems to be like for final year exam... i dunno how... i cant imagine wat gonna happened to me next sem... i gt 4 or 5 stats mod at one shot... my maths is super buang... arrgh... i dunno.. i dun like it.. i lost my sense of security... how to find it bac? i scare... scare i might just flung... seriously dunno wat i'll do... i cant do all e tut questions... i dun understand e theorem... and worse still e lecturer couldnt understand why i couldnt understand sucuh simple stuff and refuse and reluctant to teach!!!! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...............


just feeeling so NEGATive now... =.=

can't focus. no progress.

i hate it..
i really hate it to see pple progressing so much and i'm still there.
arghs! sucks...!! i think i really dun have the brain to study anymore.
no matter how hard i try.. there's no outcome!

ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHS!

love

i love money.
coz' it can buy me back my confidence.


i love money.
coz' i can dive into a world of silence, away from worries.


i love money.

Shit i'm stuck....

life is jus haiz....girls, wanna go ladies night? or we go chiong week end, i wanna drown myself with lotsa baileys and tequila shots!!!!!!!!!! i better go ladies night then. more economical.......i hope i can jus hide from the from the world for jus one night.....just one night, i won't ask for more....let go double O~! its the cheapest~! yeh or we buy baileys and hide at one corner and get drunk, or i can bring my chivas whiskey!!!! I WANNA GET DRUNK DEAD!!!!!!!

as for the trip, i guess i hav to face the reality that no one will come with me...i have to go with him alone liao....how things turn out to be like this huh?! i never thot sms, calls and msn can turn things out to be more than friends.....shit! itchy mouth, shouldn't have offered being his guide......if i'm more sensitive, things won't turn out to be like this....i will not even open my mouth.......why every time all this muz come from the third mouth....then i realise its too overwhelming......grrr.......
*still hoping!!
anyone wanna go redang????hahaha haiz i guess ill jus stick to joe they all over there, get drunk then drop dead sleep immediately..and wait for tomorrow.....

a story to share.

hey peeps,
what will u do if u happen to know that guy G is taking advantages of girl J while going after girl P? and girl P happened to be ur friend! Will you warn girl P abt guy G? Let's hear it out from u k! TAG MY BOARD : ))

and the story goes....
*if ya lazy to read.. then focus on the BOLD sentences then*

fucking bastard G is having a scandalous relationship with J, but he claims that he and J are ONLY good buddies *like real, rolled eyes*... They did more than what friends will do lo.... K, u guys might question A why do she believe J so much.. it's because.. why would a girl ruin her reputation by spreading such shameless act?! but, i didn't say much coz... A tot things would work out and all.. and whatever they do.. it's their own affair and A think both are willing parties.

and k... recently. J was very sad and thru her, A came to know that G was interested in P but he still request 'something' from J la... wtf right?! YES, A tot it was very bastard of him to do that. So, A told P not to jump into a relationship so fast and all.. and of coz got to give a reason la... A told her abt G taking advantages of a girl while he was after P. P prompted to know more and all.. u know la... girl will always wanna know more and more...so A told her but on one condition that she had to keep her promise of not implicating anybody. BUT... A do not know what's wrong with this girl la... she let the cat out of the bag. Reason? coz she couldn't help but to confront him. A dont blame her for confronting him. but... FUCK! didn't they agree that no names should be said out?!

nvm... the asshole G called A in the middle of the night lo.. asking her why does she wanna spread something likdat abt him.. and this and that and this and that. and of coz, she told him off. HELLO??? P is her friend and she did her part as a friend to warn her against u... is she wrong to do so?!! What a jerk... ! He pushes every fault to J.. saying that she caused dispute between who and who and who and who... and she is a liar and spoiled his reputation and all and then changed his 'agenda' of the day to... 'i called to clarify and understand what the gossip is about' .... FUCK U LA! not to accused A of telling nonsense to P meh?!! THAT FUCKER made himself sounds like a pathetic victim... everybody wronged him and that caused him to have a shaky start with P and all..

my view :
but anyway, if G still wanna deny the truth between him and J to P... i've got nothing to say.. but i think P would be very dumb to believe G. So dumb till she let G and J settle this issue THEMSELVES. a lil evil suggestion.. why dont P talk to J and then both of them look for G then?! yeah?


woo... 5 stars rating?

* i know karma's a bitch and i know it's none of my business. Just some interesting story to share... so i didn't put their name.... and... and... even though i mentioned lots of 'fuck' and 'fucking' and 'fucker'... NO SEXUAL INTERCOURSE is involved la... juz ONLY heavy pe.. ahem.. touching.. anyway... it's juz a story la.. dont take it too seriously : )) *

definition of Success!

To Laugh often and much,
To Win the Respect of intelligent people,
and the affection of children,
To Earn the appreciation of Honest Critics
and to Endure the Betrayal of False Friends,
To Appreciate Beauty,
To find the Best in others,
To Leave the world a bit better,
Whether by a healthy child, a garden patch. . .
To Know even One life has breathed Easier
Because YOU have LIVED!

This is to have SUCCEEDED!!!

TO SEEK OR NOT TO SEEK

o·pin·ion
n.

1. A belief or conclusion held with confidence but not substantiated by positive knowledge or proof
2. A judgment based on special knowledge and given by an expert
3. A judgment or estimation of the merit of a person or thing
4. The prevailing view
5. Law A formal statement by a court or other adjudicative body of the legal reasons and principles for the conclusions of the court.

TO SEEK OR NOT TO SEEK?
arghs.. i only got few hours left to decide on IA company.

oh no... its maths AGAIN!

im sooo soooo soooo GROUCHY!!!!!!!!
damn!! i tot for e whole sem i dun haf to touch mathS!!! im so damn bloody wrong!! BOOO BOOOOOO. . . ..
Probability= MATHS.. its so maths... and i still got theorem to prove.. just that diff theorem now. we prove why mean= np and variance=npq!!! OMG!!!!! i catch no balls at all... haix... im just so SIANZ!!! feelin sick and tired again.. i need more GREEN TEA POCKY!!! ahahah

YES GREEN TEA POCKY!!!! i gt a surprised on sun noon... julia courier me a parcel... wid tea green pocky inside!!! damn,... im soooo sooo surprised!!! well i feel damn gd la.. no bf to coax me but gt her!! damn... send me MORE!! haahahhahah

early in e mornin i woke up wid a smile... i saw e green tea pocky.. im so happy... as i walked to e bus stop.. tis little kid wave n shouted excitedly to me.. "HELLO AUNTIE"!!!!!!! tmd... where does tis ill manner brat came from.. LOL... im sooo soooo soooooo.... i dropped him off wid a smile and walk ed away...

haix... BAD DAY!!! day dreamin during lect time n gt pitched reali hard by selena... omg... i feel so pitiful for ham.. poor ham.. but hey gal pitch him MORE!!!!! =X