i love hols!

wee.. actually my hols is not actually hols! coz of the stupid FYP which i still refuse to touch at all.. examz are over.. a huge relief to me.. yahoo.. now i gotta keep my finger crossed and hope i do pretty well this semester! ; ) gt hooked on to combat arms... wee.. jio me for games k!! : ))

xmas is ard the corner!! i wonder what will i get for this xmas... hehe!!!

i miss diving!!
i know it's so random.. but it's been a long time since i last breathe compressed air.
i wanna go to that world.. so silent... and calm. the only music u hear is your own breathing and the sound of the bubbles. peaceful. everything is weightless, like all the burdens are off ur shoulders... SHIOKNESS! : ))

i MISS!

ALL THE BEST

Wish me good luck!!! its my final papers le.. im damn stressed...
i reali feel like dying. so much so to study and so little time.
so many tings happened that drain me off from studying. im sick and tired of it.
if i reali fail my exam.. guys, i'll give u all one last call b4 i die k. i duno wat i'll do seriously.
i already feel like dying. i cant finished my revision le!!!!!!! =(

说好的幸福被拨夺了

exam blue leads to a hole in pocket

i hereby conclude that retail therapy works!


OUCH!!!!
my moneyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.... gone.



anyway... i still stuck with 1 more paper and i'll be free a free bird on thursday!!
*yays!!*

get away trip?

maidens, it been a long long time since we last went for a vacation today. Interested in planning a get away trip or smth??
heee... im tired of exam.. i duno why.. u took so long to prepare and wk reali hard for tat pathetic 2 hrs. and then everything is gone!!! does the outcome reali matters more than e procesS?

exam blue . .

it been a long long time since i last dived!!! i tink tat's like a yr ago. =(
i'm feeling sick and tired of my life. study study and studying.. i feel like stopping nw, i duno y. i noe its my last sem.. i noe.. bt somehow im more pressurize den b4. i feeling so tired and super relunctant to study. i feel like stopping the run. i feel like standing still.. i cant finished my revision even if i study real hard. i've super lots to study. super lot.. =(
i feel like crying out loud.. but i cant
i feel like crying till dawn, i feel like crying till i fall asleep...
all these are such luxury to me nw.. i;ve to stop my tears and force myself to get bac to study cuz i noe i cant afford to waste any more time. =(
im feeling so... yea i noe half a mth more.. everyone told me tat.. i;ve been strugglin for 2yrs.. just tired i guessed... ive been working well nt reali hard but i did push myself... but sticking to tings tt i dun like all these yrs mk me feel so disgusted that i no longer could control wat i wanan do. i feel like slacking whole day doin nth.. rottin on bed.. strolling my dog. i feel so sick and tired tat i feel like crying everyday. HOW? tell me HOW... i no longer have e urge to study.... =(

back from dreaming

hi maids, i'm back.... i feel a sudden lost in me whenever i'm back from a diving trip.... i seriously think they drugged the tank....i'm getting withdrawal syndrome now....

15 more days!!!! =)

cornetto ice cream

gt this bendan who scared im bored in the midst of mugging for exam in the middle of the nite and bought a cornetto ice cream for me and secretly tie it to my door gate. and its like 3am!!!! AND the first ting i did was scolded him for being a delivery man acting like a thief! hahaha.. sorry... i feel so heart ache for the cab fare!!!!!! from his hse to my hse and back to his hse!!!!! can u giv me e $$$ instead next time?!! i tink i'll seriously be happier!!!! =p
but still, tis gesture is kinda swt ahaaa.... thanks!!! but dun do tat again! i'm sure i'll scold u AGAIN! haaaa

tired . .

我真的累了. . .
想要给你的并不是你想拥有的。 。 。

PRogramming SuckS!!!!!!!!

i reali reali relai hate programming so much now!!! it sucks big time man!!! i dun understand e stupid codes at all.. and it sucks even more when thru out the whole mod u're not teach on programming but u needa use it for project!!! damn... where am i suppose to know what's e coding i suppose to use!! =.=
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
i feel like dying man... FAN+STRESSED+PEKCHEK!!!!!!!!
best combo ever. . .

Work & Travel USA

can anybody sponser me $4.5k to work & travel USA?

最近比较烦 。 。

i'm so tired!!! kinda feeling fan and stressed. i'm still stuck with 3 projs!! BOOO.. and der's one i did wrongly and redo everything again.!!! sianz... e other 2 is programmin! damn... i wonder wen will i ever complete it. i haven started revising for e exam. and i failed my maths paper!!!! tutor said whose who fail beta look for their respective tutor and tried to work out a way! omg!!!!!! i hope n prayin hard tat i'll b able to clear it man.. its like everyone scoring every high for tat paper.. all those china ppl!!! sianz.. u noe hw stressed and irritated u guys made me??? hahahaha.. damn la.. always score so high and skewed up e bell curve!!! if i fail den hw? are u guys willing to help me fork abit of my sch fees? sianz sianz....

i dunno im too exhausted after all these sems or beginning to become more and more lazy! haha... i've been slacking slacking and slacking.. die die die... and someone pls push me to wk harder? is der anyone out der wanan sponsor me $$$ to buy swts?!?!?! hahaha... im easily contented with swts!!!!

let's meet up sometime after our exam again! i've a great time last last last sat? hahahaha... thanks for everything!!! =)

i need to start the engine!

i'm getting panicky about feeling so slack when examz is ard the corner!
arghss... tried to study but can't concentrate! WTF!
bOOoOo!

Hrm is finally over...
left fyp interim report!
arghs... one bad new is that i'm still stuck for fyp! *FUCKED UP*
then time that i can spend to do FYP, i spent it on HRM instead.
HRM IS JUZ A VERY TIME WASTING MODULE.
Richard even say that HRM HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH BOS!
then why are we still doing BOS then?! ****FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK****

retail therapy is good. but now my pocket gt a big hole.
i spreed on Old Navy. hahha... sales item and further 20% ...
woots.. every top that i got is less than 10 bucks sgd!
hehe! in total, i spend abt 55SGD? and i got like 7 tops?!

well well...
i hate examz.
i need to study.
before my future spells G-O-N-E.

Insomnia....is 5 am in the morning!!

I guess all these games, downloading, bumming around totally screwed up my body clock..... super-energetic at night, Z monster clock in 6 am in the morning. Leaving mpeast both makes me happy and stress. happy so as i don't have to deal with shit anymore, stress as in just like want eugene tang said, " bo money, no income" and i do need income as i need to pay a large sum of liabilities that doesn't belong to me well i mean most of them, i guess some of you knew what happened. so currently i'm doing a part time in order to support my financially dysfunction family or maybe no just financially.... haha anyway, am working at sentosa right now.

Next year, i've planned to go redang during the off season. Fed has been telling me all the fantastic stuff they were doing there right now.....visbility up to 18m woot! no crowds, no mares, gull, tusa, scubapro, apollo, oceanic ......etc, yeah i mean fins..so darn irritating when at the end of the day u see nothing but fins, divers and bubbles. that dive trip will be like just dipping into big ass jacuzzi. and they are do exploration dive!!!!! i love exploration dive, did once with ah mo but didn't succeed finding a reef that we want. we can hardly do exploration dive as there are other divers in during that week and all divers will wanna see something at redang right?! who will want to do exploration dive when there might be a chance where u don't get to see anything at all, it will be a very expensive swimming lesson duh... and they got a GPS for dive site woohoo~! and they found a new wreck!!! and they saw dolphin jumping near redang.,......so many things no to be missed during off season.....anyway, redang has ghost pipe fishes, we found 2 during my trip. no need to go bali for that liao.....haahaa oh ya, and i want my whale shark too......

Ham and Ling Bday @ Handle Bar

Omg, i know this is super random but i really think that dane is a changed man! haha... and i really like his korean girlfriend!! so prettttyyyyyyyyyy... i keep associating her with korean actress. when she sing in korean, it's like super cute!! omg!! i'm liking her lots! =X

Old Maids : ))

Happy Birthday Ham-Ling. haha!

whole lots of us who turns up. : )

the girls and the big boss...

weekend!! : ))

i really love attending year 4 class!
i love my classmates very much. with people like kiran kenny and max, they never fail to put a smile on my face. stephy is such a sweet lady... i really like her lots. and shivani, don't always get angry ok... SAVE UR KIDNEY! haha! and this reminds me of my good old poly days.... sweet memories. : ))

finally it's weekend. yahooooo...
kevin picked me up from sch today... : ))
we went to had dinner with felix & gang.
then went to settlers cafe @ holland village.

this is the funny part...

i actually got very fascinated with sio's iphone....
lol... there is application where u hum some song for 10s.. then it can find the song title for u... coolness... we are humming along orchard rd... i think passerbys must be thinking we are mad!!

this is my 2nd time going to minds/settlers cafe with 50 seniors... lol.. ultimate fun!! : )) must really go with sio... he never fails to make me laugh till gt stomachache. he is sooooooo funny!!

AIYA... it's the end of wk 9 le...
i'm getting rather uptight as examz is juz ard the corner!
gotta study!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! roarssssssssssssss!
hrm sux to core. fyp too!
pui!

Swimming lesson

Raymond wants Ian, a 2 months old kitten to outshine, ailin's ( my ex colleague) cat, Bailey and Shadow, her golden retriever. Ailin is renowned that she has a Golden Retriever that hates swimming and barks like a Chi hua hua/ Pomeranian. Which is a disgrace to all owners of golden reteriever and golden retriever itself. So one day, raymond decided, no, he insisited that Ian must be a swimmer since he is named after an Olympic swimmer Ian Torres, he must be a better cat than Bailey and a better swimmer than Shadow.

Look whats coming

Economic Crisis is coming.... it will be worst than the Great Depression. looks like people are losing their jobs soon yet i've quit mine hehe so ironic.....

Anyway, my friend Bob, said that Raymond (rich man's son) 's 2 cats and dog has no one to take care as the maid is going overseas... read carefully, not raymond going oversea, his maid is going overseas....... seems like rich family people cannot afford to live without a maid. so Bob ask me to go to his house (at braddell ok?!) to take care and train his bloody mongrel which raymond insist that it attacks and bites. He said that his friend, who works as a Judge, (Court Judge), was playing with him and suddenly he snapped(please lor, the dog only play bite, didnt really snapped....wah lao study so much for what!!). When i reach there, the mongrel has totally no idea what is the right way to greet people, jumping and biting your hand but is just play bite.....when i get close to the dog, raymond started "oi oi dun get so close, it bite!!" .....wah lao wussy!!!anyway, starting this sat, i will be goin gover to his everyday for 3 weeks to take care of the animal, wish me luck..

Hello People!

i'm back!! it's thurs and i'm on self declared holiday!!!!!!! (cos fyp has been making me nocturnal) next week will be my RECESS week but it wont be as free as u think it will be.

WHY?

i need to:
1) STUDY EM
2) Prepare for Prof COM presentation
3) FYP !!!!! fuck, i really need to progress!
4) DO HRM tutorial 3
5) GO to Shivani's hse for a lil fun & Tuition!
6) hopefully can squeeze some money and time for a short trip! : ))

well, enough abt sch work, it's so boring!

talking about friendship. haiz, i do not know where to start... it has been so long that it actually bothered me for quite sometimes. but what can i say is that, i think we lost it already. but i am still feel grateful when you used to be around to comfort me last time. i used to resent u for a period of time where things become so tense and uptight. i feel damn awkward to be ard u. i try to avoid u to prevent u to be so unhappy. but look what i got in the end? insults and being bad mouth by others... well, it's ok... they are ur gd old frens, i surely have gt nothing to say. who would come and talk to me anyway? i did not voice out last time doesn't mean that i admit to what you got to say. i just hope it get over and done with. you think and reflect about your actions, if you feel that you have been childish, don't do that again..

well, friends, they come and go. i lost a bunch of gd frens. and look what i have got now? a bunch of fun loving friends. my bio electronics specialization... we are the funkiest specialization ever. : )) love them lots. then i have my freshies. 2 raymonds and lester are rascals to the max! so fun to have them ard. not forgetting the rest, they are really nice pple : )) sweet-ness. Then my lao peng yous i got xinhe, jasen and kevin(small)... my *tad tad*.

bie, DESMOND CHEONG IS ATTACHED! hahha.... ming quit her job and going for her divemaster!! JIAYOU!! ling is stress to max, her final semester. dane msg me in the morning telling me he was shocked to see pqk in SIA. wah.... many of our guys has become stewards! cool. The other day ming came to my hall to stayover. i'm so happy about the get together. Eugene tay, weeliang and adriel came over... hahha... tt EUGENE TAY is ATTACHED too. and his hands always stick to his gal butt like magnet! HELLO EUGENE?!!! MY BUTT BIGGER CAN? hahhaa....

anyway, JM, are u reading this?!!! u free hor, come NTU find me for dinner or SUPPER can!?!! i super duper bored~!!! : ))

Rude Vendor!!!

i went to buy breakfast in the morning. this idiotic women. oh its woman! 2 auntie.. may yr stall close down soon! i asked if i needa wait very long and the women replied:" want to buy then you wait!" wth.. so rude.. she's doing a business, cant she juz be a little more polite. tat spoilt my day, my morning!!! i decided nt to buy and headed to a very fat stall selling the same ting. few mins later.. tis women came and said. " u ordered from me. i packed yr food!" wth.. i cant believe she chase me till so far!!! zzzz.. i say i'll pick it up ltr and she order me to pay her first! damn her.. i'll nv nv nv nv buy from her again!!!

anyway, a fren of mine called me and ask me bout my add! im so sorry. i din wanan give at all. im very very scare of the "little surprise" ting nw. PLS STOP STUNTING ME!!! i din wan ppl to give me the same old "stunt" which will send me outa my wits. SCARY!!!! i feelin so bad nw.. my fren was kinda sad but... KJM.. u're very scary, proven by evon! hahaha.. im nt e only one that say u're scary!! u muz do self-reflection! hahaa..
stop askin me out and say u'll camp outside my hse for supper. perhaps u mean nth. bt im filled with FEAR!!! what u did and wat u said somehow bcum my phobia! Evon say if u very free and had nth to do, go NTU find her!!! she dun mind eating supper with U! so ya go find her.. she'll b as entertaining as me and more even more entertaininG! =)

Hey girls i'm back~

yes.after 1 week trip to redang..i had so many jellyfish stings, bruises, wounds as a souvenir. as usual, im too lazy to even take pictures, but had a few of underwater shots though. New thing in redang!! Ghost pipefish! Only manage to see it in bali, now redang also have hahahahaah. Well Maids, sad to say, redang is not like before.....so just dive, have fun, go home...dun bother about things going on over here......

I got badly drunk at redang. It's Redang Beach Staff night, and they invite me over. beer, whiskey, black label.......you name it, they got it..In the end, i still need mo to send me back....
Wake up at 5 am due to heartburn but still need to dive as Walter needs a buddy,..

Squeeze all the rescue exercises on the last day so didn't manage to dive that day. I lost my earrings, tae peng manage to pull it out when we were fighting at the beach as he tried to drown me......i hurt my index finger, now i can't even write well.....

it been long since U aLL blog!!!!
von isnt it time to update yr life, yr studies n yr bf?
ming, its oso time to update on yr further "career" advancement rite and yr gerbils? (yucks.. its RATS!!!)?
its so dull and boring here nw compare to its glamorous past. haha.. can u all update more frequently?

i'm feelin stress, very. so much wk to do yet so little time. often kena bluff by too humble ppl! one say nv do mock test paper one say dunno hw to do, din reali do. end up both of them do almost everything!!! BEST!!!

i gt alot of assignment and projects to do man. im worried tat in any case if i juz flung one module im dead man, i seriously duno hw i'll react. haaa.. i'll hide and cry till i go blind probably.. ahhaha...
yea.. my module code tingy was alrite nw. gng to have term test soon. omg.. sianz. i hate to decorate help sheet.

the module i super dislike this semester!
its survival analysis!!! damn.. i tink its called survival cause those who can survive outa tis module is call survivor!!! HAHAHAHHA.. i dislike linear algebra too. cause i suck! i duno hw to prove all the lame lame theorem. ahahhaha... and the tutor is always rushing for train!!
and maybe its quite true.. jm says when is it time tat pauline and selena nv say things are tough!!! LOLx.. damn damn damn.. i shall not believe them anymore. my mission nw is to stress them out!!! muahahaha...
*let me be evil, gd ppl nv acheive anything gd in life as well*

yea.. u guys din see wrongly.. its jm. i finally called him a call few days back. i guessed i finally gt e courage to call him ba. e courage to put everything behind. haa.. all thanks to the catalyze i met in life. he simply speed up everything in life for me! =.=
things tat i wouldnt care in the past, became more visible.

im so so so tired.. i gt so much and so many tings to do yet so little time.
im having quite alot of social activities tat drain me and myself out. i feel tat my brain is so heavy that i can absorb anymore things esp on tues and fri.

Was talking to my buddy sebes tat day. we say our "life" is like coffee, dull, bitter yet w/o fragrances! nothing good happen to me in my life.. its just series and series of unhappy events.. its reali reali draining me off.. i feel so tired tat i dun feel like moving on anymore. can anyone pls carry me? sometimes i do pray, asking God to be fair to me. alittle more! just a little more will do. a little more to ppl that are reali reali gd. to ppl who are reali reali kind?

so much so of nagging and venting of anger, i guessed its enuff for the day
tata~ =)

Bad things come in PairSSsssss

damn... i filed for graduation and according to NUS, i dun meet e requirement!!! damn it la.. gd things nv come.. but bad things just keep hitting me. BOOO.. im appealing now. hopeuflly everything is ok. else i gonna tk6 mods tis sem!! super heavy sua.. 6 core!! and poor pauline, she gonna tk another additional mod! i start to ponder everything is destinated frm the start! selena who failed one of the mod is safe! if she din fail, she gonna go thru e same fate as pauline. its a blessing in disguise isnt tat? hahaha... life is full of mystery!!!

i oso duno hw now. i gt no mood for anything. i pray every night now that things would be fine, she'll safe and sound!!!

F!

fuck you.
fuck fuck fuck fuck all of you!

We are meeting!

Me and liling, the true blue old maids, are meeting next tuesday after her school~! we gonna chill~ dinner~ maybe we should call more people to join us.....

von has been missing, maybe we should kicked her to the outdoor porch with deborah ho ahahah

it been like mths i nv been complaining bout sch...
wen i send jun chong off, i come to realise smth... despite all e crap n rubbish i've been cursing and swearing bout maths n sch, i've actually studied for 2yrs!!! time fly fast and seemsed to steal away my flair overnite... i'm feeling so tired n exhausted for sch..
i still hate sch pretty much! haaa... working at california fitness make me realised tat studying i indeed beta den working. i gotta see e real working world and b part of the trainee @ university of society.. but.. tat doesnt make me wanting to go back to sch.. hahaha .. damn i still HATE maths to the core... i'm taking 4 maths core mod tis sem.. kill me!!!!! i can forsee days of unhappiness coming bac to me slowly... its always killing me softly... haaa...
sigh.. tat's wat i gonna do everyday i guessed...

i wonder do anyone feel e same way as i did or i simply just took e wrong course.

yesh i almost forget to curse tat asshole who steal my gio jean!!!
damn u ass, may u fall as u walk and strike by lighting, run over by cars!!!!! yes i mention CARS!!!! may u be dead meat!!!! der goes my new jean tat's a special print edition from gio. BOOO =~( ming got gerbils to spam her attention, evon gt kelvin.. n me? DAMN MATHS!!!!

bye jun chong, do keep in touch and dun forget to leave a place for me wen i go visit u in dec!!!!
miss u as always.. =)
as promised i'll meet u online everyday!! hahahahahaha


lame joke for the day :

tom dick n harry each have ten bucks, guess 1 mrt station...


ans: commonwealth!

Have no shame

Seen the SIngapore NEw NDP theme song? well the song is not too bad i should say but the maker of the MTV...really have no shame.....they actually copied from the Japanese Ad council commercial......no creative at all... and imagine the ad is like circulating around facebook for so long....and when people see our NDP MTV....eh ...copycat......copyright? plagiarism? nah...... it was replace with a big star......its so funny that they even copied the storyline whereby the parent are distress by the child's weird behaviour and stop going to sch blah blah......wah lao.......make an effort to change the story line lah....... atleast get a few children and do the same weird coloring behaviour and it turn out they were cooperating to draw a big fat red star...pls lah.....

Happy Birthday.

It's her birthday today.

i dreamt of her!! : ))

i gave her a big hug and wished her happy birthday!

mum, i love u.

busy lil girl.

hahha... eh chey.. look at the title. how old liao.. still busy lil 'girl' ... hahha! i'm blogging from office la! boohoo.. doing my attachment with a miserable pay of 600 bucks. CHEAP LABOUR! LOL... and i realised that the permanent staffs are VERY LAZY wor... they keep throwing works at me...

heard from MR J tt MR Z always dun wanna do work.. keep asking interns to do... intern LR also tell me MR Z loves to give him LOTSA WORK!

GG liao lor... : ) ho sei liao... but heng ah.. i left 3 weeks more! : ))
wish me luck!!


FOC IS COMING.. and it's KEEPING ME REAL BUSY!!
PROPOSAL... CHASING AFTER CGLS... DECONFLICT !!



haiya... busy busy busy! will blog soon before ling starts complaining. : ))

skinny fat

went to measure my body mass and stuff,
this is damn funny.
im actually underweight! yes im underweight yr eyes is nt wrong!!
BUT i needa cut down on my body mass! cuz half of me is fats, e other half is muscle!! LOL
wth sia.. so paiseh!!!! wat's wrong wid me.. i used to b fit!! =.=
so im actually reali a gd fren of "ham".. im a walkin bacon!! LOL

happy birthday.

happy birthday to me...



in this special day,
i really miss mum lots.



thanks for giving me life,
i'll remember those good old memories we had together.
i'll keep them in my heart.


i really miss you lots.
come back in my dream.
give me a warm birthday hug.


i love you mum.

no money liao lah!

omg...canon called today, said my repair cost is $211 whoa~~~!!!! sian lor, it because of the stupid casing, or else i rather buy a new one?! damn it .....

=(

i got bac my results le..
FUCK!!!!! i score worse den someone who's understandin is worse den me!!!
i cant believe lo!!!!!
n she's still so FAKE and CALL ME SAYIN I PAST n u'll DO BETA DEN ME OSO...
SIANZ............

LEAVE ME ALONE AND STOP ASKING ME OUT FOR DINNER~~~~!!!!!
NO $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
NO MOOD

Staying at Redang?

The more i think of it, the more i need to consider. i'll leave to u to decide bah! I've told yvonne that I've made plans to stay at redang for a month for DM course. should I? I love u maids, pls give me good ans! Because island is filled with scandals, that makes me wanna reconsider again......hm..but i do love island life. And making plans to go sipadan too...join me? maids?

My 'Ba Zhi"

As you all know, i went for the Ba zhi thingy, i'll jus blog it down before i went old and senile and forgot everything she said.
actually this post, i've written long ago, jus cut and paste......

1: My ba zhi is filled with alot of water, so no matter where i live, i'm always surround with water, less than half a click, will have either reservoir or swimming pool. (jus to let u all know, i'm staying in between both of them)

2: I'm a lazy person (true enough!)

3:Mature too soon....

4:A person came into my life, exert authority on me, makes me unhappy and stress. I'm very afraid of this person....(This is so God damn true! my dear maids, u all know it right?)

5:One of the biggest threat in my life, my Reputation. (he he i shall not elaborate on that, no one will believe it) anyway is coming in 2 years time. we'll see.....

6:My family is giving me alot of stress this year.(true)

7:Someone will come and ask me to do something. business maybe or anything relate to money, during the later half of this year.

8:i will have diving accident (yes....it really happened!)

9:i'm surrounded by very mature friends (at least 30 yrs and above)

10:high chance of marrying old man! (sian....)

11:I can only get married at least at the age 35 and no matter how, someone will always take the guys away.

12: the actual safe period to get married is at the age 45.(old maids life time membership liao la)

13:At the age of 40, someone will come and take away someone very close to me, anyone!

14:i will do business at the age of 30

15:i must do something related to water

16:There's at least two person like me now......(Like real....the onli thing that i dun think it happened.....)

17:Becareful of my left kidney

18:I love micro stuff (do u know i had a thing for parasites under microscope?! love it)

19:my curtain is small flower design (well said)

so.....if that guy can wait for me till age 35....i think i got no choice to accept him bah hahahhahahaahah. when i look old, wrinkled and senile....choices are few.....i think i should jus stay as old maid forever bah

emo. emo. emo.

it's my 2nd week in ABB le..
currently on leave coz i'm bloody sick.
well, basically i juz do nothing in ABB..
coz no job allocated to me at the moment.
hopefully by next week, i get to do something.
oh well, there is this guy, IYER, forever loves giving me trainings.
good in a way, i get to learn more things...
very bad coz i dont get to go home on time!! *roarss!!!*

it has been half a year since mum left me...
this emptyness is still yet to be filled.
i don't know what to say but i jus feel very upset...
mum, have u been coming home lately? have you been watching after us lately? i really miss you lots.

friends, remember to go home and give your mum and dad a big bear hug. tell them you love her/him... : ))

emo issues came in. after reading ling's entry... i realised it's very true. People i cared and loved most are taken away from my life.. so pple, pls cherish the one u have with u now. DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT K !!

sometimes, i think 3 of us are destined to become old maids. : ))
love and fate, never fails to play prank on us.

Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Forget about the one's who don't. Believe everything happens for a reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.

我终于知道自己在乎的是什么了！
不是你不告而别了一年， 也不是你拨走了我本来因有的幸福， 而是你口中所说的为我好在我眼里却是你用来逃避的借口。

self-declared off today!!! heh heh heh

im tired at wk... but learning mac is so fun.. aahahaha

i can use both softwares now!! weee weee

even gt free photoshop lesson taught.. that's like so gd!!!

bt im tired.. i guessed i din rest aftter moi exam and came over to wk.. goosh.

im so tired everyday despite how early i sleep.. yawn... 

tagging along with e rest to eat buddha jump over e wall at nite.. ahahha

shd i go? its free thou... bt i feel like sleeping =X

omg... i loving maths now

for the 1st time i tink maths would be a better choice than indian studies.. AHHAHAHA
goosh.. im having a hard hard time studyin the notes of south asian!!!! arrrghh... pls pl pls.. let me get a C.. a C would do the job!!!! *pray*

yay....*shakes butt*

wooooooooooooooo...

i finish my exam!!!!!!!!!!!!




REDANG !!!!!!!!!
i'm coming......................................!

very first experience

for the very first time.. i stepped into the wet market~~! yes wet market.. i nv step in to buy tings.. well i step in to buy minced meat for my dog. i went to tis stall selling pork and i told the uncle i want minced meat.
he looks at me and said: "how much you wanna buy"?
i stare at the uncle and go blank.
me: uncle how you sell it?
uncle: hw much youy wanna buy?
me: uncle i dunno i nv buy b4.. hw u sell it?
uncle: oh... 3 bucks or 4 bucks oso can. hw much you wan? hw many ppl eating
me: nono.. no ppl eatin. tat's for my doggy..

uncle stare at me for awhile and said" YR DOGGy LIFE SIA" =.=
what's wrong now.
bt e funny ting is i dunno hw things is selling in the market and looks like a fool.
HAHAHA...

甜甜的

歌曲名称: 甜甜的
歌手名称: 周杰伦

我轻轻的尝一口你说的爱我
还在回味你给过的温柔
我轻轻的尝一口这香浓的诱惑
我喜欢的样子你都有

你爱过头竟然答应我
要给我蜂蜜口味的生活
加一颗奶球我搅拌害羞
将甜度调高后再牵手

你的爱太多想随身带走
想你的时候就吃上一口
我温热着被呵护的感受
却又担心降温了要求

我尝着你话里面的奶油溜啊溜
听过的每句话都很可口呦啊呦
那些多余的画面全被跳过
你的眼中只有我

我轻轻的尝一口你说的爱我
还在回味你给过的温柔
我轻轻的尝一口这香浓的诱惑
我喜欢的样子你都有

我轻轻的尝一口你说的爱我
舍不得吃会微笑的糖果
我轻轻的尝一口份量虽然不多
却将你的爱完全吸收

我微笑着让香味停留缘份走到这
也赖着不走像夹心饼干中间有甜头
继续下去不需要理由

i gt addicted to this song..
i know, i'm slow...

lost.

from the moment she lost her last breathe, the wake, the funeral, the cremation... replays every now and then.. not only that, those happy memories we shared, those last few days we had with her, those and those... i will think about them every night before i sleep.

i lost my direction in life.

what's the purpose of studying?
what the hell am i doing?

i don't know.. i really don't know.


help.


saw jenn's post... i can't help feeling sucky. sucky in term of, can't do anything to make things better for her. i know whatever i do, i can't make anything better. just like if i were to convocate next year, i will be very emo too. what's convocation without mum being around?


but deep in my heart, i'm contented and thankful that i still have mum with me during my 21st.

Examz.. roars!

haiz.. havent been REALLY STUDYING FOR EXAMZ.
my heart is still not there yet.. it flew all the way to redang already!
i can't wait for the redang trip!!

ah moh.. joe and fred!! i miss them lots! : )
and most impt.. diving with my lovely ming~
HUGS... : ))

16 april - astromony
18 april - electromagnetic
21 april - Power conversion and electronics & Bahasa Melayu
22 april - integrated electronics
23 april - contemporary southeast asia arts


FUCK FUCK FUCK.. i hate examz!

Redang

Hey guys, i'm back from my so call second home, Redang. Redang bay dive shop did change alot! Seems like eric made lots of effort to improve the dive shop, extra bench to put your tank and everyone will be assigned a number, just like in Sipandan. Anyway, met up with some of our Bali trip divers as well.... Diving is fun, we saw Eagle ray! and is a big one, this is my second encounter with eagle ray at redang, once was last year before season end, two baby eagle came to the house reef. Well i took a short video of the eagle ray as i feel there's no point taking pictures due to the distance, vis and my camera. well, a hongkonger drove the ray away because he went to chase it....duh! silly idiot!
21.03.2008, our last day, our last dive, i almost died. My valve was not fully open, after 30 mins dive, suddenly, there seems like very small amount of air coming out from my regulator, checked my gauge and shows Zero air.....i quickly swim to a my nearest diver, a certified rescue diver, signal to her that i've no air, need her second stage. She showed me her SPG signal to me she's OK! roar! then i signal to her again and instead of waiting for her to react, i grab her secondary regulator. My heart just dropped at that moment, her secondary cannot work....i tried to purge twice but in vain. I started swallowing water and signal to her that i need her second stage urgently but she don't seem to understand...i have to grab her second stage take a breath quickly push it back to her mouth..... apologise to her for that and quickly go to another diver, Emmanual, and do our safety stop... so my very first near death experience....anyway, i went to a fortune reading before my trip, saying i'm not advisable to go diving, might met some accident.....creepy man...

恶人处处有, NUS 特别多！！！

i HATE LOSER!!!!

my idiotic grp mate was GREAT!!!! she changed my whole essay and deleted 1 page of my report saying that portion is better to be included under HER SECTION!!!!!!!!! BEST... now i gonna write more and she done me with more work!! i send out my section a wks plus ago to them. And i just received the mail back on the "edited" portion.. PUI.. TMD... #$%^&*^%
i just hate her la... SLOW POKE some more.. or am i too efficient!!! ARRGHHHHH.... jian nu ren.. si hei pi!!!!!!!! she asked me to introduce her portion before bringing in what i want to say.. and the fact that she hasnt even send us her draft and deadline was on FRIDAY!!! Booo...

KEN LEE~~~~ tulibu dibu daouchoooooooo~!KEN LEEEEEEEEEEEE

a step closer to mum.

i'm a step closer to mum...
guess what..
yesterday has been a ______ (i don't know how to describe) day for me.

went to a medium at linggi. mixed feeling. my mum... so close to me. yet what i see is the medium face, what i hear is the medium voice. mum... i really miss u..

was on my way home along the north south highway. met a car accident. at that instant, i thought i'm on my way to be with mum. i've got splitting headache! fuck~

senario is like this...
the car infront of us E-brake, so.. daddy managed to e-brake in time too... tt FUCKING BUGGER who DROVE SOOOOO FAST didn't manage to brake in time thus crash onto the boot of the car. FUCK.

that bugger's car.. look at his bonnet! must be driving too fast la.. fold until likdat liao..



heng heng.. i sat on the left side of the car.. the impact was soooooo strong lo. but truthfully, i hope i die tt instant! arghs.. havent been happy since my mum's death.. : ((

like what jenn say.. so near yet so far...
i would like to think of it in a pessimistic way..
so near to mum, but yet still quite far.

it been only like 2 wks from term break and i feeling sianz again.. so fast this time!!!
bOOO...
i hate studyin... i juz wanna slack...
i haf lotsa tings to do.. lotsa proj.. term tests and assignment..
i could hardly breathe.. i dun feel like doing anything atall.. i guessed lazy ppl often haf ALOT of excuses to bring over tml..

i need more self discipline and determination man!!!!
i hardly study.. doing nonsense things everyday..
went to get wallet and its outa stock.. BOOO
i shd haf bought it earlier and not keep procastinating it...

and yea.. happy independent women days~~~~~!!!!!
didnt haf time to post tis few days back..
and yesh.. all NS guys were all staying bac in camp to seek for mas selamat!!
i hope i could find him! den i'll bcum rich tai tai~~!! hahaha..
and guessed wat's e first tings i'd do?
i'll ask him to tear down NUS... HAHAHA

final fantasy break!

erm... im nt stressed anymore.. cuz i nv been moving at all for quite some time.. i guessed tis is wat i called mentally break down.
LOL

i started sleeping like 10hrs a day or more.. watching 4 hrs tv everyday and doing anything under e sun but nt studying. so i beta die faster. else i gonna tkt is shit one more time

and YESH my term break started. i hope Ms XXX wun call me outa nth n ask me maths. tat's kinda irritatin at times. nt tat im super gd lo. im super lousy. bt i still nv start studying. i spend my whole nite n morning playing ps2~~ DAMN FUN.. final fantasy 13!!!
WEeeee WEeeeee. can u imagine i played and wondered why time passed so fast lo..
HAHAHA... i bet my bro would scream at me if he noes i've been abusing his ps2!! lol..

sucks.

quizzes..!
but i havent study!

LOL...

hates studying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

here's my schedule for holiday! *which dont look like a holiday for me*

22 feb - bbq/ briefing for senior camp
23 feb - senior camp
24 feb - meeting roy/ karen's party/ go home
25 feb - study for power electronics
26 feb - mum's 100th day/ aquax dinner/ study for electromagnetics
27 feb - study for integrated electronics
28 feb - study for integrated electronics
29 feb - go back to ntu for final year talk.
1 mar - integrated electronicds quiz in sch
2 mar - study for electromagnetics
3 mar - study for electromagnetics / back to hall


*arghs...*

I'M A GRUMPY OLD LADY

im tired.. very..
mentally sick and tired of living... i've been constantly cursing myself to strike with brain tumour last stage.. den i wun haf to study!!
call me coward watever..

im sick and tired of life...

maths all day mk liling a dull nerd!

im gettin stupid i guessed... im like so grouchy.. i spend hrs doing a single tut!!! i feel so wasted of time.. ans best of all its juz 4 qns which i skipped 1 of them cuz i reali dun wanna think anymore!!
AHHAHAHA.... i hate using my brain.. sometimes i do hope that god can turn me into a hot n loveable BIMBo so tat i coudl get ard easily w/o ease. i could grab any job w/o effort... i could easily fish some big fishes and cheat off their $$$$.. HAHAHAHa... bt then again i tink bimbo not brain hw to cheat ppl $$$? haix


maths maths n maths..... i feel so nerd can.... i'm stuck wid my maths tut. the fear of nt being able to grad bcum greater n greater wid e harder of maths mod tat im taking. Boo.. it reali sucks... i tried to stay indoor nowadays... im missing the fun of collecting ang bao over e yrs... im nt visitin any fren hse anymore... i spend all time at hm doing MATHS... figuring Maths like decoding binary... i hate maths... i missed julia's mum ang bao!!!! haix....

And worse of all.. my maths tut been reali far bhind time.. i needa catch up before im really a goner... i started skipping lects and tut as soon as 4th wk of sch... HAHAA... i usually can last half a sem b4 skipping them... i juz hate maths so much...

and u guys stop telling me maths is interesting and fun.. try to prove it.. i bet u'll go haywire and even worse den me!!!

numb

i'm not strong, i'm numb

Happy Valentine Day

HAPPY VALENTINE DAY!!

anyway, i'm happy and yet not tt happy..
hahha!!

hall mates are great.
but they are all busy with their own stuffs : ((
we are no longer crazy.
we are no longer close.
uncle derek leaving 51 in weeks.
dont worry, i wont miss u! LOL
everybody is hiding in their rooms lo...
how i wish i could turn back time.
to my first semester in 51.
crazily in love with 51 then... : ))

updates of my life...

currently..
busy with FOC
oh ya.. my main com... crazy bunch of people but i love them lots!!
zhihui, tricia, shirley, casey, martin, ronggui, daqing, kelvin, sharm, michelle, zhichao, ivan, tzewei, firda, yekai, tzeqi, yvonne and cassandra.
Senior Camp on next friday and i'm quite excited abt it.
BBQ on the 22nd... finally get to see all my subcoms..
alright, let's work hard for FOC k..
my heart and soul and sweats are in IT!

busy with blk reps *arghs...!! love/hate r.s*
i'm very sian doing job as a chief blk rep.
the last steamboat session were great..
and i am very much looking forward to CNY dinner and ONS.
but 51 is like a dead zone now...
full of walking zombies.. very sian can?! : ((
i hope the response turns out well...

schoolwork..
i'm a lazybum.
who overslept and skip class.
as u guys know.. i missed 3 papers
so i got to retake the 3 modules...
i dont even have the heart to attend class lo...
except for my electives...
astronomy, malay and contemporary arts.
GONER!!

astronomy is cool. reminds me of my childhood anime, sailor moon.
where i can memorise the order of planets by heart. constellation is lil difficult for me.
i'm not tt imaginative! the quiz are freaking hard... : (( GONER!

i love malay class... but i getting kuku.. coz i keep mixing up japanese with malay.
some of the suffix and all.. and some vocab! hahha... coz malay is a funny language..
the structure is soooo diff.. GONER!!

ARTS.... critic the arts pieces.. i know NUTS.
GONER!!

:(( boo hoo.. i think i better start working hard and smart liao..

Enumeration of stages

The stages are:

1. Denial
2. Anger
3. Bargaining
4. Depression
5. Acceptance

i seen my mum been through these stages.
"it can't be happening.."
"why me? it's unfair.."
"Just let me live to see my children.. 5 years.. 5 more years"
"i'm going to die, why bother with anything?"
"it's going to be ok.."

what i went through..
"mum's gonna be fine after operation/chemotherapy.. etc etc."
"why my mum? she is such a nice person.."
"just let mummy see us till we start our own family..."
"my mum's going to die.. what can be worse than that?"
"let's spend the remaining days with mum fruitfully"

then...

"my mum's gone.. but she is still around.. i want her to be around"
and the cycle continues....
i don't know where am i now.


cycle continues if even for afterlife.
i know my mum..i know.

...can't believe she is dead...
...why is her life so short...
...hopes to be around at home to watch over us...
...time's up there's nothing she can do, she grief...
...it's time for her to depart to her own world...

i miss her lots..

i flip through the pics uploaded to my facebook.
i realised i miss her lots..
is there really something call afterlife?
is she happy in her own world?
i wish she could come back in my dream..
so that i can give her my last goodbye kiss and hug.

how i wish i am a witch. (something like harry potter..)
where the person in the pics can move...
where the dead could still move about and still talk to you..
haiz...

there's still a videocam lying in the drybox..
i do not have the courage to replay those tapes.

whatever it is..
this moment..
i really wish to have her back...

Monday RAWKS like HELL

yes!!! my most anticipating monday, i love mondays lots, always lots of clients, breaks always shorten, endure screaming impatient singaporeans!Even got a premier "Love letter" before chinese new year today! got complained by a walk-in client for letting clients with appointment to see the doctor first, had him waiting like a fool at the reception not knowing when he's gonna get to the doctor. Gave sarcastic comments then threw a "F**K IT!" on my face and left. Then MPAH received the "love letter" and forward it to us.

Another client came in during our off operation time, wanted ear medication for his dogs ear infection that was seen last four years, giving excuses like not able to bring the dog because it's big? fat? whatever, or don't have time to bring....will medicate first to make the dog feel better then bring in....still refuse to give him the meds, just as i expected, they will ask for the vets..... then when the vets say NO, they will storm out of the clinic without saying good bye.
I feel like bloody knock the sense out of these people trying to buy meds over the counter giving excuses. what if your child is very sick but have to rush for a meeting with a big bang client that may gives u a commission to last for a lifetime, jus throw a "panadol for kids" to him/her and assure "yes daddy will be back, jus drink it, will make u feel better, will bring you to see a doctor when daddy's back!" Don't have the money, Don't have the time? then don't get a pet, jus as good as don't commit yourself for a family. I even have secondary school kids bring in a newly bought JRT wanted a consultation but don't have the money to pay for anything, then i asked whether i could contact their parents as they are underage to make decision, they turn another big round saying they have financial problems...what F**k is going on with their pea brain?????? everything just don't really click to together.......i feel like putting myself to sleep........why burden yourself with a dog? is not like u picked a puppy somewhere straying around crying whatever and out of kindness, u try to help the dog. you BOUGHT the puppy and how dare you telling me you don't have the money to take care of it. jus like Mr brown's podcast "Zheng my car" johnny said, " SORRY AH! MY SHOW NO SPONSER AH! IF GOT SPONSER I ZHENG FOR U SWEE SWEE(Hokkien)" ya, my clinic no sponsers too, or i can treat your pets for free!!!Gosh! total shitness...... anyway mpeast is looking for receps, any takers? advise to work on monday, is the most exciting day of the week.

i love old maids

i simply juz enjoy HAHAHA-ing with old maids : ))

Loser....

Von wanna be a hot babe
Ling wanna be pretty
guess what's my new year resolution?! GOTA CATCH"EM ALL!!!!!!!!!!! my legendary pokemon!!!!!!! he kept running away from me!!!!!!!!! ROOOAAARRR!!!YES! indeed, i spend my new year's eve playing pokemon at home.......so addictive hahahahahaha
alright, gonna go catch them now...i know, i'm a loser, i wanna play pokemon till 30 yrs old, crowd around with all my 30 yrs old friends at mac donald trading pokemon. thats my new year resolution

New Year Resolution 2008

don't laugh at me...
i'll aim for it!

1) Get straight As (aim for the sky, fall on the stars... ya.. A*!)
2) Slim Down, tone up those flabs.
3) Healthy mindset
4) Spend time with my loves one
5) Save LOTS of $$$
6) Log more dives
7) Learn something new
8) Achieve enlightenment