Nothing can explain how i feel...

i finally picked up the courage to blog without tearing...

My mum passed away on 19th Nov...
i havent got any mood to blog abt it..
(it is not tt i got the mood now but... i just think moving on is the most impt thing for me now..)


i feel so lost, yet sometimes, i still think my mum is still ard.
it's really a very complicated feeling.

sometimes, i dont understand how can a person 'go' just like that?

been very busy settling some of my mum's stuff.
there are still a lot i need to do..

and sch hasn't been very nice to me.. : ((
i opt out of attachment and next sem,
i'm gonna retake those modules which i miss their papers.
results are out.. not very good but i cleared all the papers i took.
blessing in disguise? i'm really upset with the results..
i feel so stupid.. and that my limit is only there...
nevertheless, gonna try harder next sem.
i promised my mum to graduate : )

alright this song taken from 881 soundtrack..
just reminds me of my mum..
everything is the same.
just like what my mum is suffering..

《最后一口气》

有病有痛真干苦
出出入入四排埔
打针会落头发
吃药强要吐
归日倒块眠床铺

求天公我来求佛祖
乎我好好来行路
叫父母您著来娶我
娶我甲您来作伴

今年只有四十外
乎病甲我来折磨
死袜死 活袜活
剩半条命地啦拖

人生我已经看破

(hokkien)

haiz.....

Wisdom tooth..

Yes, that stupid tooth has caused me to suffer discomfort for many many weeks......and i've finally get rid off it and i have 3 stitches in my mouth....now i can't eat anything because it's so sore and painful....i bite the gauze to sleep because i drool with blood.
The operation was not as painful as i thought it would be, the dentist is very very nice and my surgery lasted less than 1 hr because i didn't request for a rest in between....he kept goin, 'fantastic! u were very calm fantastic!" hahahahaha anyway it's not fantastic after the numbness went off. i dreamt that all my teeth drop off, the stitches came out blah blah blah all kinda things tat relate to the pain sensation in my mouth.....when i woke only to see my pillow filled with blood....aaaahhhhh and the dentist said the swelling will be even worst on the third day onwards.......aaaaaah there goes my christmas, who wants a chipmunk for christmas? i will evolve into a chipmunk in 3 days time.

cheat in exam is a no prob ting nw

this is damn cool... how to cheat during exam!!!
should go check it out!
damn... i only found out after most of my memory papers!!!

http://www.metacafe.com/watch/956273/cheat_at_school_professionally/

haf fun!!!

joke of the day

im sitting outside the examination hall at 1.15pm. thinking that the paper starts at 2, im still comofortably flipping my notes outisde. i saw e faciliator and still still at him.. and continue flipping. 1.35 i began to feel weird., how come still no PPL and SEL isnt here at all.. which is so weird... i took out my diary book to see my sitting. guess wat? i noted down e timing for e EXAM is 1PM!!!!!!

damn high sia.. i dash into the hall and they almost de-bar me from taking the paper because um SOOOoo late!!! lucky me.. they allow me to... else... i dunno how..

the paper was reali hard some more.. god bless me !!

i need some time

gimme a lil time more.


i'll be back.. blogging.


i promised

crap!

ANTIU EXAMINATION SYSTEM SUCKS!

What will happen if I miss my paper?
A student who misses any paper, whether on medical/compassionate/personal grounds, will have to re-take the course concerned. It is to be noted that the student has to attend all lectures and submit tutorial assignments again before he is able to sit for the written examination

Why are supplementary papers not offered to students who fail or miss any paper?
Under the academic unit system, students are given more choices and flexibility to progress at their own pace. Unlike the old system, they need not repeat the year if they fail or were otherwise unable to take any paper as they can take the course again the following semester, if offered. Even if the course is not offered, final year students may be permitted to take the course as a restricted repeat the following semester so that their graduation will not be delayed further. A restricted repeat is almost like a supplementary exam paper except that students are given more time to prepare for the examination and the opportunity to seek help from their tutors.

Beside, as there are already two main examinations in a year, there is very little time left to conduct supplementary examinations. With so many choices of courses given to students now, a lot of University resources would be required to set the many supplementary papers and conduct the examinations within such a limited time. Moreover, most of the courses are already offered in both the main semesters.

rules are set by human.
i wonder why they can't bend it under some circumstances.
so heartless... and ANTI-U juz leave the low income family with no choice.
even if under *touchwood* compassionate leave,
the student still got to retake those bloody modules the next semester!!
and damn... if the student has got like fucking 5 or 6 more papers to go?!!!
isn't it the same as telling him or her to graduate a semester later?!!
then for the extra semester you gotta take,
DON'T NEED TO PAY SCHOOL FEES AH?!
SCHOOL FEES VERY CHEAP IZZIT?!
*EXTRA INFOR: IA NOT ALLOWED TO TAKE ANY MODS*

let's say.. if he or she decided to continue with the examination...
THE PAPER WILL SURELY BE GRADED WHAT!!!
WHAT IF THE GRADE WAS REALLY THAT BAD?!!
sucks, IF ANYTHING WERE TO HAPPEN TO YOUR FAMILY!
FUCK, LET ME SEE IF U STILL GOT THE MOOD TO STUDY OR NOT!


I SERIOUSLY THINK THAT SUP PAPER IS VERY IMPORTANT. IF THEY DON'T WISH TO OFFER TO THOSE PPL WHO FAILED THEIR EXAMZ, AT LEAST THEY SHOULD LET STUDENTS WITH VALID REASON TO SIT FOR SUP PAPER IN LATER DATES. not to mention those who are damn hum ji that went to take MC when they think they gonna flunk tt mod, they bloody hell dun deserve sup paper!!


DAMN DULAN.. but what's the use... nothing can be done.
coz the motto/vision/blah blah blah or whatever u called...
does not have anything to do with compassion.

cause i'm leaving on the jet plane~~

Guys! i'm at T1 now, so damn boring, their msn are not updated thus cannot sign in....and they have pop up blocks so cannot use web messenger as well...duh! now is like 5.30am? met chong, daph, jh, des, eugene teck directly after my work for late night movie, "Stardust" and i giving it 5 STARS!!!!! its super funny. ..haha suppose to leave during the mid movie because i haven't packed my bag yet other than the diving stuff which was like already in the dive bag and all i have to do is jus pull out from the shelve. but i couldn't bear to miss and part of the movie, is hilarious!!! especially the ghosts .... well the movie motivates you as well, from a complete loser to hero and eventually king waaaaah. it was like 3am when i reach home, i quickly pack my bags and prepare to leave as the web says to check in 3 hrs prior and my flights is 7.00 am.....i rush down.....NOT EVEN A SINGLE SOUL AT THE CHECK IN POINT......they decided to appear at about....5 am ? wah lao...... shouldn't have rush lo....can even take a bath.....everything is like wait wait wait and wait, now waiting for my flight at 6am :) transit at jarkata for two hrs is waiting for me....and when i reach there, i have to wait for joe and mo they to come because i will be reaching earlier than them..... well old maids....i will miss you!!! study hard k?! i'm not going to study le. i have other plans in mind....still working out...so will keep you all update k!!! will sms you all when i reach there safely hahaha is 5.55am now prepare to check in, bye guys, ciao~

Idiots! have they no parents to teach them something ???

this is irritating, asking an old man to ferry three of them on the same trishaw and not paying him later!!!!!!!! and mocked and humiliated him on the way.....shit! stupid people, trishaw are meant to be slow, for tourist to do some sightseeing, not a taxi!?! air head bimbos....
poor old man, still try to entertain them on the way with his minimal vocab, saying "happy! happy!" when the guys are laughing at him. that uncle might not know what's happening but we people feel heartache for this old man and angry with these three ass holes. it really hurts me at the ending of the clip, the old man went to each of them trying to get his money back and they jus hit off with a taxi and saying "10 dollars, my ass" this is not about the british, not about caucasians, is about these three people have no shame and respect. thus disgraced their race and country. these three people are the "HAI QUN ZI MA"

leave.

if i really cannot carry on anymore.
dearies. i really do love u guys k.

im stupid

i spend bout 4 hrs to do 4 tuts questions! hw great!!!! 4 questions took away my whole noon!!! ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ. and worse of all, outa which 3 gt prob!!! till nw still gt PROB!!!! HAAHAHAHAHA.....


some times i wished im smarter... n my maths foundation is beta!!! ARRGHHH... i gonna force my kids to practise maths everyday next time!! BOOOOOO

and everyone ard is like 扮猪吃老虎！！！！！ sianz... i dun like tis kinda environment.. mayb i juz nt fit to b in tis kinda environment.. i cant b lao hu!! =(

evn's new lover~

well well well.. snce pass_by is no longer comin bac to gossip, ah ling jie today will dig some gossip for our chat room man.. maahaahha


¤*° ĻÏĻįйפּ °*¤ says (11:45 PM):
evon feel blue
Milk and Honey. says (11:46 PM):
oh good
Milk and Honey. says (11:46 PM):
i go comfort her
Milk and Honey. says (11:46 PM):
HAHAHAHA

¤*° ĻÏĻįйפּ °*¤ says (11:46 PM):
she gt attach to tis guy le
¤*° ĻÏĻįйפּ °*¤ says (11:46 PM):
u no chance le
¤*° ĻÏĻįйפּ °*¤ says (11:46 PM):
AHAHHA

Milk and Honey. says (11:47 PM):
huh
Milk and Honey. says (11:47 PM):
aiyo
Milk and Honey. says (11:47 PM):
damn
Milk and Honey. says (11:47 PM):
am i too late then?
Milk and Honey. says (11:47 PM):
walao
Milk and Honey. says (11:47 PM):
ask her wait for me ma

Milk and Honey. says (11:50 PM):
she likes him or he likes her?

Milk and Honey. says (11:55 PM):
ok ma.... evvone quite cute
Milk and Honey. says (11:55 PM):
somemore malaysian right
Milk and Honey. says (11:55 PM):
then study eee also
Milk and Honey. says (11:55 PM):
got small eyes as well
]]_ yvonne; says (11:56 PM):
eehhh.. my sch gt lotsa cute malaysian in EEE
Milk and Honey. says (11:57 PM):
but i'm imported!

*]]_ yvonne; says (11:59 PM):
wahhahah~~!!
*]]_ yvonne; says (11:59 PM):
ya ..
*]]_ yvonne; says (11:59 PM):
rich ass
*]]_ yvonne; says (11:59 PM):
go uk!
*]]_ yvonne; says (11:59 PM):
rob him
Milk and Honey. says (12:03 AM):
not rich lor
Milk and Honey. says (12:03 AM):
if rich i'll just bring her over
Milk and Honey. says (12:03 AM):
rob me also no use
Milk and Honey. says (12:03 AM):
my nett worth is only 300 dollars
Milk and Honey. says (12:04 AM):
but if she agrees to come with me i'll make sure my nett worth grows exponentially
Milk and Honey. says (12:04 AM):
tell her its not a chance that comes everyday
Milk and Honey. says (12:07 AM):
i must see her parents
Milk and Honey. says (12:07 AM):
and she must see mine
Milk and Honey. says (12:07 AM):
why do i need to do that with her sia
Milk and Honey. says (12:07 AM):
no need to run away one
Milk and Honey. says (12:07 AM):
just normal relationship
*]]_ yvonne; says (12:07 AM):
okok~!!! no need to consider liao..
*]]_ yvonne; says (12:07 AM):
elope!

Milk and Honey. says (12:09 AM):
i no elope no elope
Milk and Honey. says (12:09 AM):
i work
Milk and Honey. says (12:09 AM):
she study first
Milk and Honey. says (12:09 AM):
after grad
Milk and Honey. says (12:09 AM):
get married
Milk and Honey. says (12:09 AM):
then kids
Milk and Honey. says (12:09 AM):
then she tai tai
Milk and Honey. says (12:09 AM):
good plan
Milk and Honey. says (12:11 AM):
i'm quite serious wor
Milk and Honey. says (12:12 AM):
its hard to find a girl with so many similarity with me
*]]_ yvonne; says (12:15 AM):
wahahhahha~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!
*]]_ yvonne; says (12:15 AM):
where gt similarity ?
*]]_ yvonne; says (12:15 AM):
so many pple same as him
*]]_ yvonne; says (12:15 AM):
malaysian , EEE
Milk and Honey. says (12:16 AM):
so she dont want lar
Milk and Honey. says (12:16 AM):
she wants other malaysian lar
Milk and Honey. says (12:16 AM):
good......
Milk and Honey. says (12:16 AM):
tell her dont regret huh
*]]_ yvonne; says (12:19 AM):
tell him.. dun likdat leh~~!!
*]]_ yvonne; says (12:19 AM):
keep me as spare tyre
*]]_ yvonne; says (12:19 AM):
whahah

]]_ yvonne; says (12:28 AM):
eh.. tell me.. i very rough one leh .. not lady like.. later he sian diao.
*]]_ yvonne; says (12:28 AM):
tell him i mean
*]]_ yvonne; says (12:28 AM):
whahahz

Milk and Honey. says (12:30 AM):
HAHAHAHAHA
Milk and Honey. says (12:30 AM):
i already knew.
Milk and Honey. says (12:30 AM):
i can train

Milk and Honey. says (12:28 AM):
but how bout the boy she fancy?
*]]_ yvonne; says (12:30 AM):
dump him lo.. coz jm better



wanna noe e full story?
ask evon la.. LOL
ROY u in deep shit... evon gng to DUMP u sOON!!!! ahhaahahhaha

better luck next time

真的是他妈的"超级白"... 看到别人不劳而获的成果真是咽不下这口气... 情不自禁感到非常眼红... 老天爷真的那么瞎吗?

真的好 SWAY !!

cant help feeling damn fucked up.
i cant turn back.. yet cant move forward.
this feeling sucks.
u know, u know???!!!
if u never been thru tt.. shut up ok?!

u lucky brat.. better cherish ur luck.. coz
风水轮流转!!!

dan says people who haven't gone through shits. are shit themselves.
haha!which i totally agree.. naninanipoopoo.
*childish*

lost in arab st.

ham : YVONNE!!! DINNER @ ARAB ST LATER!
me : sleeping!!
ham : don't care... wake up now! old maids going too...
*hang up*

kns!! *roarrrrrssss*
called the maids then hurried down to arab st..

lost in ARAB ST!!!
can't find ham and gang... : ((
old maids think .... ahem.. some part of arab st looks like geylang!
infested with 阿中 hookers. ahem. *disgusted*
and then finally.. saw ham at one of the junction....
forgot which Mediterranean's restaurant le..
the food is not too bad.. : ))
and dane.. never fails to irritate our ms poh liling.
LOL!! next time cannot put them tgt le... =X
dane and wxy claimed that they can write a book on how to pissed ms poh off.
*LOL* good catching up with them...



till mr wang xian yang told me something!
*ROARS, super pissed*
(not he pissed me off la.. it's juz something he heard from someone)

tmd, fakie!

BOOO.. i hate NUS... i HATE BIOSTATS~~~~~!!!!

ARRGGHHHHH..... im feeling lousy... LOUSY... i'm havin prob graduating... someone told me tat wid my lousy cap scores, i do haf prob graduatin... tis keep ringin in my mind... ARRGHHHHHH................. even im surprised wid my results nw.. i nv been tis lousy b4!!!! i hate SCH!!!!

Happy Birthday!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST LING : ))

cerrtified as rescue dishwasher~!

do u know that dishwasher and diver actually share the same word in french? hahahahaa

anyway, i'm back from redang (not again~) well nothing really change much over there externally, so i didn't bother to take any pic. but internally, as in management of the dive shop, relationships....whatever changes real fast, eh...is jus two months apart from my previous trip over there. Tae peng is leaving redang bay due to some conflict, eric will be in charge from now on. Ah mo and the cake house girl got back together. Azmi, Eddy is as cheeky as before but i found some shocking truths from mdm tan about them, scandalous~!. Joe is still as funny as ever, Eric, obsess with his new ipod.
Met tim at golden mile directly after my work, while waiting for our bus, An uncle approached us, he want to go redang as well but he didn't book any package at all, his plan was to go KT and blindly look for pinanchorage and bring him to redang......duh~ troublesome......so i helped him booked everything by calling joe on the spot whether they have rooms and instead of alighting at KT, he joined us all the way to Merang and i help his booking and everything, he's like so grateful and impressed that he told everyone from the bus uncle to all the people and tourist he met at redang bay about how i save his day....-_- anyway he's a pilot, SQ Pilot. ( well old maids sorry, he's married but he has a 28 yr old son if you're interested) mu ha.

Redang bay have a baby monkey, she is so adorable, but she bite when she's angry.......her name is koko, and throughout this trip, she sticks to me all day long whenever i'm on land.everyone says she my daughter, if people try to bring her away, she bites hahahaha. Clement came to join us on our second day, everyone starts to say us being scandalous because i sms him that i'm going redang and he appear....
i didn't take any pics for the first two days.....too busy
I started my first dive the moment i reach there, mini mount.....boring~, nothing much and vis is super bad......then the day was occupied with "Little Anne" my CPR mannequin for my EFR lesson. I do all 9 evercise on the second day, azmi is my victim...and partner, one of the exercise, we have to look for missing diver. To go the a spot and assume to be where the "diver" was last seen, and round the spot to look for it but we went to look for moray eel, and lion fish ahahahahah because we found our missing diver in 5 mins yeh~! i went for my boat dives and scenarios on my third day, clement had to be my victim as azmi was injured (not by me). he is super heavy and i have diffculty pulling back to the boat....... other than that haha everything else was fun. we went whale mount, sea horse garden and sharon stone. saw quite a few nudi branch. borrow their underwater camera, canon ixus 75. wasn't sure about the settings, the pictures turns out to be all blue... as eric say there's no flash when u use macro.....i got really pissed when all the pictures turns out that the blue "ate" up all the nice colours nudi, and the buttons always stucks when i looking for the settings...........Finally, the turning point starts when we are nearing our decompression and ready to accent, i've got the settings with underwater mode + macro + FLASH!!!!! i took one nudi by chance, is small yellow nudi..... and off for our safety stop....i feel like killing him!!!!!! arrg~! anyway i've got certified.and next trip will be bali...... oh ya aboutt the scandalous things of eddy and azmi's group? mdm tan told me that they sleep with tourist and leech money and gadget from them....since redang bay hav strict rules of staff stepping into guest's rooms, they look for tourist from other resort.....yucks~! 臭男人.
as for the exciting post from passerby, von, i thought u place a disclaimer telling people not to shoot u liao still kenna shoot.....next time must put an official disclaimer like TV programmes. we already said, we anti 臭男人, seems like u are so affected, u are one of the 臭男人? if not then dun get so offened. okok.....to appease u,i will change the rule, we anti臭女人 also.
Selling membership- 臭女人 need not apply, and those C cup and above (erm..tats to appease me) :)
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passer by

whahah.. didnt know my entry caused so much anger and pain to dear passerby.
and passerby.. if u can find my blog.. i'm sure u can find ways to tell me the story. pls dont disappear... LOL : )) coz i love gossips.. ahem.. STORIES : ))

HISTORY for recap...
passer by tag on my board : ))

passer_by: Are you sure you don have gfs around u who is doing such things? please looks can betray de.

passer_by: Open your eyes big loh. No matter how innocent she looks like i really cannot believe she have done such a thing oso. Initate sex with a guy when her bf is out on ship?

passer_by: I agreed that guys are terrible. But your gals fren are nothing beta.

passer_by: Go ask that gal to tell u her own fantastic story la.

passer_by: If she dare to do all this she don dare to admit ma? If she is reading ur blog that will be good.

passer_by: If she can give up her 3 years plus relationship to break other ppl's relationship she shd be thick skin enough to share with u ba.

passer_by: Don have to believe wad i say!

eh.. how u find our blog? do u know us?? ling ming and i?? erm.. how u know the story one? are u part of it as well?!!

PC, mee sua & me

if u ask me how i'll be celebratin my bdday tis yr, alrite here it goes... i gt 2 pper next wk which means stay at home n mug thu e wkend... lif damn pathetic! i gt biochem paper on fri, juz a day after my bday... having so much to memorize n stuff.. i cant go out on thurs nit as well!!

to pre-celebrate my bday, i cooked mee sua for myself.. bt damn pathetic leh... im eatin ALONE!!!! with PC to acc me!!! =.=

this is how i gonna celebrate my bday tis yr!!! Weeee Weeeee so "EXCITiNG MAN"



my mee sua with me on a lonely sun! hahaha.... shit i feel so bad man...
i need some love this yr!!!!!!!!! LOL

MING i cook mee sua for u on yr bday!!! dun worry... u wan swt or salty version?!?! LOL

oh ya did i mention i saw SUGI tat daY? i still smsed him sayin owe $$ pay $$$ and he iterally avoid this question all e time! too bad.. i guessed u guys cant tk ba e $$ liao.. let's burn batam!!!

你的人格又在那裡 ?

真遭! 明天有 QUIZ， 我没有心读!!! 救命啊!!!

刚刚跟一位很久没见的朋友谈天，谈着谈着，心里感触很多。 失望, 恶心... 男人都不是好东西! 身为男人的他都那么觉得。真可笑! 我不是说每个男人都不是好东西啦! 也不是说女人不会啦，只是在我朋友范围的女生都没有那么做。

问你...
如果一个人没有女朋友或男朋友，他就有资格去乱搞吗?
跟陌生人乱搞，不会感到恶心吗?
就算是朋友想要互相认识多一点，到还没成为男女朋友前，做出一些比较"复查"的事是 OK 的吗?

我的朋友就说到:"身为男人，只要可以跟很HOT的女人搞上，什么都是OK的!" 

男人满脑只想到那种东西。做出那种东西还觉得很光彩，觉得自己是没有错得。我真的想不通,那么就请你告诉我，以上的想法是不是真的有道德的?!没有的话那，他们的人格又放到那里去了呢? 为什么一定要这样"爽"一下呢?而这样子的爽，他们一点也不觉得恶心吗? 如果他们的老婆以前也是这样，他们可以接受吗?

got a very good example to share:
他跟她是朋友。有一天他们一起去读书，然后不知道怎么怎么了就CHECK IN HOTEL 了。 开心了两个小时，然后，再也没怎么联络了! 这个女人后来跟别人在一起， 她的男朋友当然不知到有这一回事，男朋友还跟我的朋友是好朋友呢! 问了我朋友为什么CHECK IN 呢? 他说 VERY PHYSICALLY ATTRACTED BY HER，以为可以发展。 那么HAPPY HOUR过后，才发现不能发展了吗? 想不通喔!!!

还有很多次都跟陌生人或不熟的朋友HAPPY HOUR，都是因为 VERY PHYSICALLY ATTRACTED AND 觉得可以发展来做理由。

你们觉得这是OK的吗???


如果你们的男朋友的过去也是这样...
他说他会改过自新，这样的人可以值得相信吗?

我还是认为防人之心不可无， 相信一点点就好啦 !


说我老古董呢，我又不觉得。
不是说我很有道德， 我 也是觉得只要有名分的在一起是OK的! 所以请不要乱乱SHOOT我，我只是在AIM那些喜欢搞没名分而"密切"关系的人而已... AND EXCUSE ME HOR, 名分是指男女朋友和夫妻HOR! 不是朋友关系HOR!! 就算是朋友，这么搞... 我也觉得不对!


being in old maid club is the best "insurance policy" a girl can ever get.
- everlasting friendship or rather it has somehow evolved to kinship *loves*

hahha.. selling membership : ))


huggies to my old maids.
love u gals.
ANTI 臭男人

too tired.

i'm too tired to move on.
but i'll try my very best.

arghs.
hate this feeling.
but it's the cycle of life.

i hope i can be like li bu yi in the show, bu yi shen xiang.
study astrology, feng shui and all..
then can ward off bad omens...

arbo.. i'll be a nun.
chant in temple. study buddhism scriptures and all..
achieved nirvana. and never reborn again.
so i'll never get to suffer shen, li, si, bie or shen, lao, bin, si.

off focus

im scare.... its juz a stats mod and im strugglin like mad... my revision for my term test seems to be like for final year exam... i dunno how... i cant imagine wat gonna happened to me next sem... i gt 4 or 5 stats mod at one shot... my maths is super buang... arrgh... i dunno.. i dun like it.. i lost my sense of security... how to find it bac? i scare... scare i might just flung... seriously dunno wat i'll do... i cant do all e tut questions... i dun understand e theorem... and worse still e lecturer couldnt understand why i couldnt understand sucuh simple stuff and refuse and reluctant to teach!!!! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...............


just feeeling so NEGATive now... =.=

can't focus. no progress.

i hate it..
i really hate it to see pple progressing so much and i'm still there.
arghs! sucks...!! i think i really dun have the brain to study anymore.
no matter how hard i try.. there's no outcome!

ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHS!

love

i love money.
coz' it can buy me back my confidence.


i love money.
coz' i can dive into a world of silence, away from worries.


i love money.

Shit i'm stuck....

life is jus haiz....girls, wanna go ladies night? or we go chiong week end, i wanna drown myself with lotsa baileys and tequila shots!!!!!!!!!! i better go ladies night then. more economical.......i hope i can jus hide from the from the world for jus one night.....just one night, i won't ask for more....let go double O~! its the cheapest~! yeh or we buy baileys and hide at one corner and get drunk, or i can bring my chivas whiskey!!!! I WANNA GET DRUNK DEAD!!!!!!!

as for the trip, i guess i hav to face the reality that no one will come with me...i have to go with him alone liao....how things turn out to be like this huh?! i never thot sms, calls and msn can turn things out to be more than friends.....shit! itchy mouth, shouldn't have offered being his guide......if i'm more sensitive, things won't turn out to be like this....i will not even open my mouth.......why every time all this muz come from the third mouth....then i realise its too overwhelming......grrr.......
*still hoping!!
anyone wanna go redang????hahaha haiz i guess ill jus stick to joe they all over there, get drunk then drop dead sleep immediately..and wait for tomorrow.....

a story to share.

hey peeps,
what will u do if u happen to know that guy G is taking advantages of girl J while going after girl P? and girl P happened to be ur friend! Will you warn girl P abt guy G? Let's hear it out from u k! TAG MY BOARD : ))

and the story goes....
*if ya lazy to read.. then focus on the BOLD sentences then*

fucking bastard G is having a scandalous relationship with J, but he claims that he and J are ONLY good buddies *like real, rolled eyes*... They did more than what friends will do lo.... K, u guys might question A why do she believe J so much.. it's because.. why would a girl ruin her reputation by spreading such shameless act?! but, i didn't say much coz... A tot things would work out and all.. and whatever they do.. it's their own affair and A think both are willing parties.

and k... recently. J was very sad and thru her, A came to know that G was interested in P but he still request 'something' from J la... wtf right?! YES, A tot it was very bastard of him to do that. So, A told P not to jump into a relationship so fast and all.. and of coz got to give a reason la... A told her abt G taking advantages of a girl while he was after P. P prompted to know more and all.. u know la... girl will always wanna know more and more...so A told her but on one condition that she had to keep her promise of not implicating anybody. BUT... A do not know what's wrong with this girl la... she let the cat out of the bag. Reason? coz she couldn't help but to confront him. A dont blame her for confronting him. but... FUCK! didn't they agree that no names should be said out?!

nvm... the asshole G called A in the middle of the night lo.. asking her why does she wanna spread something likdat abt him.. and this and that and this and that. and of coz, she told him off. HELLO??? P is her friend and she did her part as a friend to warn her against u... is she wrong to do so?!! What a jerk... ! He pushes every fault to J.. saying that she caused dispute between who and who and who and who... and she is a liar and spoiled his reputation and all and then changed his 'agenda' of the day to... 'i called to clarify and understand what the gossip is about' .... FUCK U LA! not to accused A of telling nonsense to P meh?!! THAT FUCKER made himself sounds like a pathetic victim... everybody wronged him and that caused him to have a shaky start with P and all..

my view :
but anyway, if G still wanna deny the truth between him and J to P... i've got nothing to say.. but i think P would be very dumb to believe G. So dumb till she let G and J settle this issue THEMSELVES. a lil evil suggestion.. why dont P talk to J and then both of them look for G then?! yeah?


woo... 5 stars rating?

* i know karma's a bitch and i know it's none of my business. Just some interesting story to share... so i didn't put their name.... and... and... even though i mentioned lots of 'fuck' and 'fucking' and 'fucker'... NO SEXUAL INTERCOURSE is involved la... juz ONLY heavy pe.. ahem.. touching.. anyway... it's juz a story la.. dont take it too seriously : )) *

definition of Success!

To Laugh often and much,
To Win the Respect of intelligent people,
and the affection of children,
To Earn the appreciation of Honest Critics
and to Endure the Betrayal of False Friends,
To Appreciate Beauty,
To find the Best in others,
To Leave the world a bit better,
Whether by a healthy child, a garden patch. . .
To Know even One life has breathed Easier
Because YOU have LIVED!

This is to have SUCCEEDED!!!

TO SEEK OR NOT TO SEEK

o·pin·ion
n.

1. A belief or conclusion held with confidence but not substantiated by positive knowledge or proof
2. A judgment based on special knowledge and given by an expert
3. A judgment or estimation of the merit of a person or thing
4. The prevailing view
5. Law A formal statement by a court or other adjudicative body of the legal reasons and principles for the conclusions of the court.

TO SEEK OR NOT TO SEEK?
arghs.. i only got few hours left to decide on IA company.

oh no... its maths AGAIN!

im sooo soooo soooo GROUCHY!!!!!!!!
damn!! i tot for e whole sem i dun haf to touch mathS!!! im so damn bloody wrong!! BOOO BOOOOOO. . . ..
Probability= MATHS.. its so maths... and i still got theorem to prove.. just that diff theorem now. we prove why mean= np and variance=npq!!! OMG!!!!! i catch no balls at all... haix... im just so SIANZ!!! feelin sick and tired again.. i need more GREEN TEA POCKY!!! ahahah

YES GREEN TEA POCKY!!!! i gt a surprised on sun noon... julia courier me a parcel... wid tea green pocky inside!!! damn,... im soooo sooo surprised!!! well i feel damn gd la.. no bf to coax me but gt her!! damn... send me MORE!! haahahhahah

early in e mornin i woke up wid a smile... i saw e green tea pocky.. im so happy... as i walked to e bus stop.. tis little kid wave n shouted excitedly to me.. "HELLO AUNTIE"!!!!!!! tmd... where does tis ill manner brat came from.. LOL... im sooo soooo soooooo.... i dropped him off wid a smile and walk ed away...

haix... BAD DAY!!! day dreamin during lect time n gt pitched reali hard by selena... omg... i feel so pitiful for ham.. poor ham.. but hey gal pitch him MORE!!!!! =X

so many things so little time

Shit man, i hurt my back, hav to get it fix, going for x-ray soon..... too stuff up with work, really dun feel like working there...staff overturn rate too high, but i encourage them to leave, it's for their own future........anyway, i finally had the courage of getting scolded by cynthia on getting a haircut! yes! finally, hahahhah i havent got the chance to see her yet
hahha ive got my left side short and right side remain the same hahahaha so cynthia can jus look at my right side so as not to piss her off....

i think i'm going to get sick again...i dun feel good......again...

pek chek

i dunno what happened.. i just get irritated easily... i become more n more short tempered. i shout at home most of the time now. arrggggg... i hate tis man... i feel so unrest all the time.

meet up wid ming n adriel for steamboat on sat. im glad i did went out.. else i'd probably got grouchier... alrite.. we took alot of funny pics and had lota fun! Thanks guys..!!! ... n finally i saw my redang pics~~~
LOL... n eunice's ablum titled: the Tree, Stones ,Sand, Ladder & boat!!!!
All These are characters in her album~~~!!! Alot of THEm.. it really left us in suspense thinkin of wat she's tryin to capture..!!! HAHAHAHA



i took this shot while trekking. isnt tat nice? Impressed by my lousy cam!

Just for LUFF:




adriel looks so cute rite! haha

JASH 07

last day of foc is sp night...
god damn boring la!! : ((

then... on monday night..
we have got JASH!!
amber from superband came!!
and tadah...
they throw me up the stage la..
*thankew 51.. i love u*
the lead singer help me up and then...
adryan came to huggg huggg.....
so cute la... coz they bang onto each other.. : ))
must thanks derek..
coz he claims some credits!
HOT PICS ARE UP!!

FOC DAY 4 (pool, telematch n campfire; random too)

FOC DAY 3 ... SENTOSA! (paiseh.... random upload)