Nothing can explain how i feel...

i finally picked up the courage to blog without tearing...

My mum passed away on 19th Nov...
i havent got any mood to blog abt it..
(it is not tt i got the mood now but... i just think moving on is the most impt thing for me now..)


i feel so lost, yet sometimes, i still think my mum is still ard.
it's really a very complicated feeling.

sometimes, i dont understand how can a person 'go' just like that?

been very busy settling some of my mum's stuff.
there are still a lot i need to do..

and sch hasn't been very nice to me.. : ((
i opt out of attachment and next sem,
i'm gonna retake those modules which i miss their papers.
results are out.. not very good but i cleared all the papers i took.
blessing in disguise? i'm really upset with the results..
i feel so stupid.. and that my limit is only there...
nevertheless, gonna try harder next sem.
i promised my mum to graduate : )

alright this song taken from 881 soundtrack..
just reminds me of my mum..
everything is the same.
just like what my mum is suffering..

《最后一口气》

有病有痛真干苦
出出入入四排埔
打针会落头发
吃药强要吐
归日倒块眠床铺

求天公我来求佛祖
乎我好好来行路
叫父母您著来娶我
娶我甲您来作伴

今年只有四十外
乎病甲我来折磨
死袜死 活袜活
剩半条命地啦拖

人生我已经看破

(hokkien)

haiz.....